As most of you may have read on our new “ABOUT” page or from twitter, I have changed my name from Saanieh to Lailli. I made this change due to personal and religious reasons, not due to wanting attention or because “I felt like it”. Over the past few years i’ve had poor health and have been through a series of unfortunate events, I’m not going to say my entire 16 years of life have been dreadful, but only recently a lot has happened that I have had no control over. I had consulted in my mum a year ago regarding changing my name as I felt that my name wasn’t meaningful enough and after having spent a day intensively reading up about names and the meanings behind them and the effects it could have on a child, I was keen on changing my name. Saanieh means “second” in Turkish and can be translated into arabic and “Thanya” which also means second, if i’m not mistaken. Nevertheless, i’m the type of person that strives to be number one, never second, and being on top of the game has always been important for me. Yesterday morning my mother had informed me that she had spoken to a few religious people and inquired about my name, there’s a special Iranian thing we do before making rash decisions or major changes in our life – we console in religious people regarding our decisions and they inform us whether we should or shouldn’t continue with our decisions. Numerous people had told us that the letter ‘S’ in general was not good for me, initially I didn’t think anything of it, however I jumped to the opportunity of having a new name and a new identity. I was never fond of having my initials as ‘SM’ – i’d spent ages trying to come up with a logo for my brand, however I knew I wanted my name to either begin with an L, M, N or Z because I like letters which don’t have any curved lines in them. After spending the night with my two gay bestfriends, searching up “persian baby girl names beginning with L, M, N, Z”, the names “Lilly, Layli, Lea (pronounced: lay-ah”) and Ping” stood out the most – (my friend found Ping after looking up ‘chinese baby girl names, because we were feeling ‘spontaneous’). I ended up deciding on Layli, as I found that Lilly was too common, Lea was too average and Ping was too spontaneous and I don’t think my Persian family would approve. Anyways, after informing my mum of my new name I then went on to informing the rest of my family and then changing the spelling of it to make it as queerly spelt as possible – so I decided on Lailli – I liked the idea of adding an extra L for no reason.
So that basically sums up my new name, it’s definitely going to take a while for me to get used to it – but I love the new name. My friends have already started giving me nicknames like lilly, lala and lulu.